nearly four fucking years and i can’t get a lead role

i don’t want to sound immature to the people who know me in real life, but i don’t really care right now. 

i have worked hard. over 3 and a half years i have done 5 shows and a musical. i have taken beginning, two semesters of advanced, and even done tech for a musical once. i did 3 years of improv. i have gone to festivals, judged at one, and even given a shot at writing (with the headliner piece i did 85% of) and directing. i have become somewhat well-rounded within the theatrical realm.

and yet none of this seems to matter 

i mean i realize that sometimes, you’re not going to get the role that you want and that it’s important to take other roles. no one can be the lead all the time. 

but when you’ve been working steadily for almost 4 years and you NEVER get that shot… well, i have a right to be disappointed. 

i do not feel like being mature and gracious about my role. obviously i am still going to do the show and i know i will end up having a good time, but right now, i am not feeling lovely. so if i know you in real life (especially through the theatre department) please, ignore this.

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